We have lost a Friend

I had a great time yesterday... until somewhere during the night.
I could not have fun anymore.
I tried..
But there was a hole in me, that could not be filled.

As I got home after calling for the night around 1 or 2 am.
A friend from Chile gave me the news through Messenger.

One of my best friends brother in Chile, died in a car accident.
I've been trying to call but can't get through.

I have very few memories of him, but they are good.
He will always be remembered.

RIP Claudio Gonzalez

What else is there...

"..It was me on that road
Still you couldn't see me.."

Lost cause?

I had almost forgot about you ...until a few days ago.
The memories gets stronger for each day.
The pictures has helped me a lot.

I had given up on you.
But it's nice that I haven't given up completely .

I had to move on back then
We had to move on.
I had to leave it all.
I tried to keep in touch, but... the more I tried the less you cared.

Long time has passed since we saw each other.
The pictures has helped me... you can't even imagine how much.
We had fun, remember?
I sure do.

No more... we have been away from each other for to long now.

I see that you still remember me.
I'm glad.

I promise this...

I'll be back soon

or perhaps you'll come and visit me someday.

Yo quisiera (I would like...)

Blueberry & Raspberry Pie

...sorry.

When you kiss a woman you have to really mean it.
Passion, tenderness, joy, happiness.
It tells...
you are the only one I think of
you are the only one I desire.
Your body and soul shows how much you care about someone

I'm sorry.

I really am because I didn't saw that today.

Again.. I am sorry.

3 done...

3 of 4 canvas are ready..
I'm not that sure yet about the first one.. but I'll see what I do with it.

This feels great..

I feel this strange thing running through in my whole body.
A mixture of relaxation, peace of mind, calmness and love.
The more I think of it... the stronger this feeling gets and I feel invincible.
Seems that I got plenty of this...
and I don't mind sharing this with someone else.

Free your mind and spirit

...get closer to me and you'll find out how good this feels.

Hmmm?

What am I still doing in your head???

The One

i'm dead from all the loneliness this is how i feel understanding everything
has never been my deal maybe you have crossed my path to live inside of me
or maybe you're the reason why i'm losing all my decency
but i believe that you and me we could be so happy
and free inside a world of misery and i believe that you and me
we could be so... inside of you inside of me
cuz this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one
i've been lookin' lookin,
lookin' i've been lookin' for my mrs. right
but she don't exist chemistry is everything
and we're anything but this maybe i have crossed your path to sweep you off
your feet or maybe i'm the reason why you cry at night
before you sleep but i believe that you and me
could be so happy and free inside a world of misery
and i believe that you and me we could be so...
inside of you inside of me
cuz this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one
what do you think?
we could give it a try 'cause you never know maybe we could be soul mates
but maybe not or maybe so
if you never try then you'll never know the grass could be greener (could be)
and it'll always be greener on the other side
but you just never know this could be the one i do believe that you and me
we could be so happy and free
inside a world of misery and i believe that you and me,
we could be so... inside of you inside of me
'cause this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one
this could be the one maybe so maybe not who knows?

Quotes...

"Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves".

Blaise Pascal

more..

On repeat..

"Close your eyes,
Look deep in your soul
Step outside yourself

...and let your mind go...

frozen eyes stare deep in your mind as you die".

The strangest thing happened...

Thought of blondie while working today.
Several times.
Haven't talked to her for a long time.
Like it happens sometimes.

And what happens around lunch... she calls :D

Am I also developing this gift?
Haha, it was bizarre when the cellphone rang her special tune :P

I know my dad has this strange gift.

We talked, laughed and seems that I have planes this Saturday too :D

SWEEEEET!

Roots

Saw them live in Belfast.
Love this song.

Quotes...

"Never explain--your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway".

Elbert Hubbard

Brain exercise

I've been tired
barely slept anything..
stressed and trying to pull a lot of shit together.
Making things better, not just immediate things, things for future.
Accepting lies as truth
Knowing when to be quiet and submissive.
Scream on command and take a punch from behind.
Pushing back and standing strong on a idea.
And intelligence to have the space necessary in between

It's not easy...
but, No Worries...it's all good.

Understanding is beautiful... and I have learned.

Everything is in place,

...at last

Quotes...

"All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand".

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Nonsense...

This is the way.

Me away from you.

This has always been the way.

But I was blind.

Your lips and scent had me.

But I am cured.

Hmmm?

I actually don't know what to think of you anymore.
I got no feelings towards you, what so ever.
You say that you want to see me, asks my mother, when I get home; spends time with her, just to see me.
You got a 7 months old baby, you are getting married soon.
Why the urge to become friends again?
We don't have anything in common anymore.
Relationships get ill sometimes... and people just goes apart, they move on.
Like I did.

You never saw us in you and me...
I thought that we could talk about everything.
You could have told me...
I always told you everything...

I'll just have to see what happens, can't promise you anything
We live in totally different worlds.

We'll see what happens when I see you

4 things I did not know...

1.- I should call more often people I like/love. Seems that I have lost very much by not doing this with a special one. I have just promised myself to call more often from now and on.
2.- I should write things more clearly in this blog. I usually just write down shit from my head and then don't read it twice. I do a quick spell check, but seems I need to check the context too.
3.- People really DO read this.
4.- Knifes are dangerous