Quote

"give love to receive love".

my bike

my bike was found.

YIPPIE!!!!!

what the hell???

Hey KARMA, what have I done this time???

My new bike was stolen from my apartment building here in Belfast.
I had it for 3 weeks.


my life sucks at the moment...

oh yeah.. I forgot...

I'M WORKING ON A FUCKING SUNDAY... SHIT!!!

5 weeks...

Its been 5 weeks since i moved to Belfast.
I still feel kinda strange.
Its not like any other places i've been before.
It resembles a wee bit of Chile, specially the smells and how the streets are, well not the left driving, but colors, buildings, that kind of things.
I got my own room now as well, I sleep on a real bed now *hehe*, I'm not sleeping in a airmatress in Kenneths livingroom anymore :D
I got myself a bike to get to places, a huge black cruiser, I love it.
The only thing that sucks a bit here is the weather.
It's often cloudy and rains quite a lot.
I got a few friends her now, that's good.

things are getting better...

am I doing the right thing?

shit.. this is it.
I am in Belfast, Northern Ireland.
Everything is weird.
I start on Monday morning (tomorrow) at 9:30.

I'm nervous as hell.

Wish me good luck tomorrow!

I hope this is the end to it.

My gut feelings are getting stronger and stronger
I had this weird feeling that I would see the girl I talked about on my last post.

"This last Friday to me was hell.
I call on my cellphone to her house twice.
Both times her boyfriend answered.
Fucking great!!
Now I have to call her later... when she might be home.
But I had this feeling... that was getting worse with every hour that went by.
When I stepped in to the tram on my way home it got all clear.
I was going to meet her on my way home,
I was so sure that she was gonna be on a tramstop on the way.
But she didn't

SHE WAS ON THE DAMN END STATION...

I couldn't believe it... there she was.
After 9 months damn...
I got shit scared and started to tremble...
but i was decided.
I had to talk to her and followed in to a store.

We started talking,
I knew she was nervous too.
She barely made eye contact
I was now even more nervous and tried not to show my hands,
they were shaking like leafs.
I held my tears inside
And explained to her everything...
I felt better, but I know that we'll never be as close as we were

We hugged
and I felt in heaven for a few seconds.

I said goodbye and left."

how could I miss you..???

I was not trying to be an asshole, but I swear to God that I never saw you.
I promise.

Everything started with me having feelings about you.
And you just moved in to an apartment with your boyfriend.

What the fuck should I do?
The easiest way for me was telling you that I didn't wanted to see you anymore.
I know it's fucking stupid but, I fell in love with you,
the sweetest girl in the world,
and you already have a boyfriend.


fuck the more I think of this shit the more I realize that we have to talk about it.



...to be continued

Quotes

"Life is a waste of time
time is a waste of life
get wasted all the time
and you'll have the time of your life."

extracted from - Live in New York with Billy Connolly.

you need a head check ASSHOLE!!

fuck me hard...
I havn't done any bmx in 2 months.
Damn job... wears me out.
And now.. when i want to ride i got this
fucking pain in my right foot.
I'm going to the doc tomorrow and check it out.



and you asshole... yeah you.. the one that talks shit about me.

GO CHECK YOUR FUCKING HEAD
AND STOP THE FUCKING BULLSHIT!!

in between...

hmm.. i feel like i'm between 2 worlds...
a damn limbo...
I can't put my finger on it...
got strange feelings about everything and nothing.

I wonder if something big and awful is gonna happen...
damn.. I hope not :S


*got like a month left on the cementery job and still no response
from the job at Northern Ireland.

dumdidumdum

i'm flying to Frankfurt, Germany next weekend.

I don't feel to write anymore... or at least for now.

"Dreams...

I'm in the middle of a crowd. A whole bunch of people around me.
I'm not sure if its a concert or a some other activities,
The sky is dark, it has to be at night.
I know i'm with friends, but i can't remember their faces.
I see a coin shining on the floor, between all the legs and shoes that I see.
I pick it up.
As we leave, I see more and more coins on the floor.
I pick them up too.
We go down some stairs and i keep finding more coins
I stop to get the coins from the stairsteps.
We keep moving and watch up to the sky.

I wake up.

"Better is always good...

I'm doing ok
it's been a while since i wrote something here.
Haven't felt like writing anything.
life is treating me better.
I got a job over the summer, the pay is good.
I think... hehe I'm getting payed next week =)
I'm still a bit tired every morning but it's getting better.
It's been too long time since I worked the last time.
Still no girl... but o worries right, at least I got my bmx =)
Trouble is that she isn't made of flesh and blood =S
I still ride her, it's been a lot of park lately and thats weird.
I do prefer street, but right now it feels better park,
the weather has contributed to it a little.
like I wrote a few seconds ago...
Life is treating me better
it feels much better then a few months ago
and I just started to work 3 weeks ago.

This whole thing with maybe moving to Northern Ireland,
it's weird, I got the same feeling when my parents told me
that we were moving back to Sweden.
New experiences, girls, place to live, work.
But that's in a few months.
Now it's time to work, save some money
and wish that I got the jo blater on in Nothern Ireland.

Stupid stupid stupid

i got some more pictures from last Tranquilo day, but i just don't feel like posting them yet.
that sunday started with 2 beers as "breakfast", at 12:30 PM something in Tranquilo we had three pitchers, two of mojito and one of champagne and fresh pressed orange juice (don't know the name), then brunch and after that pitcher after pitcher with beer.....
Marcello toke me home around 9 PM.... i was wasted. Two glasses of vodka/cranberry juice fucked me upp :S
I'm so damn stupid, should never drank those two glasses :S


Take care.

I almost had her... not.

"I'm back in my old classroom, but on the same time
it's the backyard of a big house, looks like my aunts huouse.
We, the boys in the classroom are monking around
throwing pens and books, when suddenly a chair
flys cross the room and lands near me. I pick up the chair
and throws it to "Huaso", but it hits Paulina instead.
She gets up and walks towards me. I say and repeat many times
that im sorry, she is really pissed off, her skirt is ripped,
she gets in front of me and slaps me in the face.
I grab the chair and smaches it on the floor.
I'm angry and ashamed of hitting her.
I pick up the bits and pieces and starts walking to the backyard of the house,
with my head looking down.

Something in her head makes her feel sorry for the slap
and she tries to stop me and saying in the same time that she is sorry.
I leave the remains of the chair in the backyard,
with Paulina following me around the whole time.
She hugs me tenderly and says that she is really sorry.
I open the backdoor of the house and go to one of the rooms,
I think it's the master bedroom.
I lay down, she is besides me the whole time.
Some of our classmates gets in to the room and they wants us to go outside,
the party is already started,
"we are having a great time in the yard... come one guys" they say.
But i just want to sleep, I'm tired, really don't know why.
Im in bed, between the sheets still talking with Paulina,
a friend of her, some years older but still really good looking girl
and a friend gets in the room with us.
So there I am with 3 pretty girls in bed.
One of them is in the end of the bed, while Paulina is next to me
and the third is sitting on the top of the bed behind Paulina with the pillows.
We start chatting about everything when we get into sex and relations topic.
The good looking but older girl gets two dildos from her bag.
Paulina gets one of them cus shes never seen one,
while her friend starts using the other one.
I just want to bang Paulina, I've always had a little crush on her.
I'm rock hard, but she is just amazed with the dildos and on her friend using them.
Her friend gets off screming and shaking.
Paulina is speachless and asks her friend if shes ok.
I give up by getting of the bed and walking to the door, my pants are gone.
Damn it, my buddies are for sure messing around with my pants
or hiding them i get to another room when
Paulina comes to me saying "where did you go?".
"My pants" I explain.
"Get back to the bed, i wanna try the 'gadget' ", she smiles.
Yessssssssssssss i screm inside my head, i'm going to get laid.
I see my pant when talking to her.
I grab my pants that are on one of the sofas, while holding hands with Paulina.."

I wake up...
stupid Marcello is calling on my cellphone.
He's drunk and throwing up, talking about how he fucked up
and he lost his wallet in Tranquilo, he's throwing up at every 5-6 words that he says.

Fuck you Marcello, you messed up my dream.

my near future...

this is what i have planned so far

Work the next 4 months at the cementery and then buy a ticket to Belfast.
This will happen, the only reason to not get to Belfast is if i get a great job here in Göteborg or my buddy doesn't need me for the job over there.

but like i said...

so far is Belfast my next target.


Good luck to all of you.

My head huuuuurts!!

im confused...
a month ago i had no job...
now... shit.. i got like 3 things movin'

I start working next tuesday,
a co-worker from a practice that i went
to told me that it might be a job oportunity,
and one of my bmx buddies in Ireland wants me
there for a job.

It's funny how things change from one instance to another.
from total darkness to almost being iluminated by God almighty.

Shit what to do...?

last saturday...

some of the highlights of saturdays street session. Took 'em with my new cellphone :D

new sound in my head

"I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe"

part of the lyrics from Matisyahu - "King Without A Crown"

More of him at this website

First street session of 2006

at last... STREET!!
the weather was perfect for my first street session.
Riders: Filimon, David, Geske & Moi
Around 6-7 hours of riding.
The camera is kinda lame, no sound, low pixels.
But hey, at least i got filmed. Thats what counts,
and i rode on new spots.

Carve to the left


Tailtap


Carve to the right

more from TRANQUILO

bored

been home the whole week.
shitty weather that makes me dull... more dull then usual.
I thought of riding this week but i got over it and just stayed
at home and yearked off :D (just an expression).
On the bright side.. i got a call and i start work on the 2nd of may,
next month... yeaaaah!!
finally some light in the tunnel, it's just for a few months but still,
it's work.

Found some nice pics on the internet.
ArtBabes
They are gonna look so hot on my t-shirts.

Quotes

"Al primer amor se le quiere más, a los otros se les quiere mejor." - Antoine de Saint Exúpery

San Crank-O

soo nice!

Pary party party!!

Weekend

this was my weekend...

Friday:

• TRANQUILO
  

Saturday:

• April Fools Jam
• Cello's birthday
• TRANQUILO

Sunday:

• Prison Break Marathon Chapters 1-16
  (each chapter is about 40 min)
  

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

yeah!!
had a blast!!
went to TRANQUILO... hoping that my friend Hana be there... :D
Cello and Miche went there... PARTY PARYT!!!

It's Cello's birthday today... 20 something!! ahhh fuck it.. its hes birthday!!!

TRANQUILO rules like always!!


if you are in town (Göteborg) spend the evening at Tranquilo.. located at Kungstorget right next to Saluhallen.

It's one of the best places to dance, drink and have a fucking great time there.

Hopw you can enjoy it in the same way i do each time im there.

Peace 2 ya all and have a fucking great time!

Chao!!


CELLO... happy birthday PUTO!!!!

please let me get one of these.

jeeez..
got 2 job interviews this week. I might get a 3rd one next week.
i really hope something pops up and leave me with a job for at leas a few months.

=/

up in smoke

my newest adquisition

Una muy buena noche!

Anoche soñe contigo wacha!!

Dios mio q passion.

Horas y horas de carño y passion!!

Tin-Biker

I fuckin love this sculpture.


It's located at Rancagua, Chile.
My folks birthplace.
Place where i started riding DH.
I miss those years riding...

not a sleep

it's late...
i really don't know why i'm up this late.
listening to David Banner's album "Certified"
letting the time go by...

i found out this picture,
kinda old but one of the best that my dear bro
has taken, or perhaps it's just the camera that is good...
who knows...




btw...
listen to the songs 5 & 6 they are funny =) but soo true.

a week left

a week left...
a week left until payday.
I got around 50 kr to spend untill friday,
maybe a bit more.

At least i can afford 2-3 sessions at Area51.
Cus i'm soon doing 360's on the box-jump.
That's nice.

a week left.
got me som thug tunes on the HDD.
cus i ran out of tv-shows to watch :S

a week left
shit... still no job, no girl, no house on my own.
its a bad-fuckin' circle,
a deep deep hole i keep on diggin'
i'll hope i see the light soon at the end of the tunnel.. u know =/

a week left left
untill i got money.
go to the tattoofair, buy me some bottles of licour,
pay dues...

a week left
and then a whole damn month left untill next payday.




ohhh shit... this sucks big time.



Will i ever see the light?

Cherry flavored tobacco kick!!

Played with some photos and this is the result.

Tattoo Expo Gbg 2006

this is gonna be soo nice!!

another night ended in Tranquilo

last night was great.
The best times or parties are those that are not expected.
Beer @ Cellos apartment, a few more @ some nasty girl that lives in the same building.
Her friend was kinda cute, tiny lolita looking chick. Mmmmm.....
Went downtown late... BLVD and those bitches of guards told us we couldn't come in cus of our sneakers.
BULLSHIT YOU FUCKING BITCHES... (hate 'em)
so we went to Bryggeriet, just next to BLVD.
The floor smelled puke, was too dark, not many girls and the boys smelled like dogshit.
nasty fucking place..
at least it was cheap.
20kr entrance, leaving your jacket was included.

my bro called me from Tranquilo... soo we dumped the girls we were dancing with
and went there.

TRANQUILO RULES!!

Latin music the whole fucking time. Lots of babes dancing, great ambiance.

Best place to party in Götheborg!!

Manu Chao - La despedida

Ya estoy curado
Anestesiado
Ya me he olvidado de tí...
Hoy me despido
De tu ausencia
Ya estoy en paz...

Ya no te espero
Ya no te llamo
ya no me engañao
Hoy te he borrado
De mi paciencia
Hoy fui capaz...

Desde aquel dí­a
En que te fuiste
yo no sabí­a
Que hacer de tí­
Ya están domados
Mis sentimientos
Mejor así­...

Hoy me he burlado
De la tristeza
Hoy me he librado
De tu recuerdo
ya no te extraño
Ya me he arrancado
Ya estoy en paz...

Ya estoy curado
Anestesiado
Ya me he olvidado

Ya estoy curado
Anestesiado
Ya me he olvidado

Te espero siempre mi amor
Cada hora, cada dí­e

Te espero siempre mi amor
Cada minuto que yo viva...

Te espero siempre mi amor...
Te quiero...
Siempre
Mi amor...
Se que un di­a...
volverás...
No me olvido y te quiero...

T.E.S.M.A...

T.E.S.M.A...

My girlfriend =)

She's soo nice!!

tuesday night

why not...

it's healthy to get drunk once and a while.

*tihihi*

my part in "Mejorando"

Stephen Lynch - Baby

it itches...

ahhhh damn it...
it itches like a motherfucker...
but i love it... the pain!!

Mejorando

At last... our new movie is out.

Download it from our website www.lmbmx.com

new colors

Made a new banner and updated the colors on the website a few days ago.
www.lmbmx.com

crash boom bang!

photos from Chile

when shit hits the fan....

it's not easy to say to someone that you love to stop seeing you.
But i couln't take it anymore.
I really loved her... but she always saw me as just a friend.
i tried to be the best friend i ever could
and bury my feelings towards her deep down my soul.
and i really did. i bury all my feelings and played dumb
whe she wanted some advice about a boyfriend.
How many times didn't she call me about troubles
she had with her boyfriend.
What to do, what to expect... that wears you out...
not even superman could've take that
and not bend down to her feelings.

This is the only time that i'm beeing selfish,
trying to solve my own problems instead of others
if you can't respect this.. then.. i'm sorry.

this is just how things are.

Party party @ TRANQUILO

A few years ago...

When: October 1989
Where: Kallebäck's dirt.

Me and my bro.

Me

Feeble

I had forgot that I had more BMX sequences.


Feeble

assholes...

fucking assholes...

I HATE ASSHOLES!!!

besides that... the evening was great.

"..al primer amor se le quiere más, a los otros se les quiere mejor.."

new frame

shit..
this is so cool.
Got myself a new frame, BMX frame.

Flybikes PANTERA 21" (Darkbrown)

now i have to figuer out how the fuck i'm gonna pay for it... lol

the Haka

The words of Te Rauparaha's haka (1810) used by the All Blacks:

"Ka mate, ka mate
Ka ora, ka ora
Tenei te tangata puhuruhuru
Nana i tiki mai whakawhiti te ra
Upane, upane
Upane kaupane
Whiti te ra".

Translation:
It is death, it is death
It is life, it is life
This is the hairy man
Who caused the sun to shine again for me
Up the ladder, up the ladder
Up to the top
The sun shines.

Tiretap/Fufanu???

Trip to Chile

In a few words this is how my trip to Chile was.

Had lots of money to spend,
I had my bmx with me,

got me some good pussy (you wish you saw the photos... HAHAHA),


drank a whooooole lot booze and
saw my old good friends.

Gracias por todo.
Mario

hmmm...

long time i've wrote a few words here.
but i haven't felt that it is necesary.
A whole lot of water has passed beneath the bridge.

But i still can't find the the inner thread.

a preview of what im processing in my head..

homies