I hope this is the end to it.

My gut feelings are getting stronger and stronger
I had this weird feeling that I would see the girl I talked about on my last post.

"This last Friday to me was hell.
I call on my cellphone to her house twice.
Both times her boyfriend answered.
Fucking great!!
Now I have to call her later... when she might be home.
But I had this feeling... that was getting worse with every hour that went by.
When I stepped in to the tram on my way home it got all clear.
I was going to meet her on my way home,
I was so sure that she was gonna be on a tramstop on the way.
But she didn't

SHE WAS ON THE DAMN END STATION...

I couldn't believe it... there she was.
After 9 months damn...
I got shit scared and started to tremble...
but i was decided.
I had to talk to her and followed in to a store.

We started talking,
I knew she was nervous too.
She barely made eye contact
I was now even more nervous and tried not to show my hands,
they were shaking like leafs.
I held my tears inside
And explained to her everything...
I felt better, but I know that we'll never be as close as we were

We hugged
and I felt in heaven for a few seconds.

I said goodbye and left."

how could I miss you..???

I was not trying to be an asshole, but I swear to God that I never saw you.
I promise.

Everything started with me having feelings about you.
And you just moved in to an apartment with your boyfriend.

What the fuck should I do?
The easiest way for me was telling you that I didn't wanted to see you anymore.
I know it's fucking stupid but, I fell in love with you,
the sweetest girl in the world,
and you already have a boyfriend.


fuck the more I think of this shit the more I realize that we have to talk about it.



...to be continued

Quotes

"Life is a waste of time
time is a waste of life
get wasted all the time
and you'll have the time of your life."

extracted from - Live in New York with Billy Connolly.

you need a head check ASSHOLE!!

fuck me hard...
I havn't done any bmx in 2 months.
Damn job... wears me out.
And now.. when i want to ride i got this
fucking pain in my right foot.
I'm going to the doc tomorrow and check it out.



and you asshole... yeah you.. the one that talks shit about me.

GO CHECK YOUR FUCKING HEAD
AND STOP THE FUCKING BULLSHIT!!