Valentine's Day

like always when i am too lazy or when to much things happens... i just forget or i don't make time for myself to write a few lines.
It's Valentines day tomorrow... and i feel like crap.
I have just met this girl that's very much in to me, but i can't feel the same way towards her.
It feels like I'm trying to empty a sea with a cup.
No matter how much i try, i cannot do it.
A very good friend told me to enjoy as much as i can with this girl as long as i haven't promise her anything and of course as long as she is OK with it.
(My friend is actually a girl, so to you girls who thinks my friend is a pig, :P)

To end a relationship, no matter how long or short time it was, as long as you have put your entire being into it, its still gonna hurt long after its over.
I do now know, why people tend to live in the past, the want to live those moments again, where they where in love and everything was beautiful and the didn't think of anything else then give love to the person they were in love with.
To feel that beautiful thing called LOVE.

It bugs the shit of me and the more i think of it the more angry and regret i feel towards my ex girlfriend for not loving me in the same way that i loved her.
But that is just stupid, how can i be angry towards the person who noticed me in the crowd, when no one else did, in this cold country.
I am stupid and this is just mixed feelings because i am not mature enough to deal with this, and i never will be. It's just the way i am.
People always say that "time heals all pain".
That's just bullshit... it just teaches you how to deal with them, how to put a side them.
That's what i got in my mind at the moment, and I'm certain that with the years i will know how to deal with them.
For now its dark in my tunnel, a few sparks of light here and there, but no end of it yet.

For all of you that are in love, tell your sweetheart that you love them, because you never know what will happens tomorrow.

Happy Valentine's Day